The kiddo’s summer job at a nearby plant nursery is costing me a fortune even with the “employee mom” discount. She doesn’t have her license for a couple more months so every time I pick her up or drop her off (or make a trip to deliver something she forgot – hat, sunglasses, sunscreen – or bring her Dunkin’ or Starbucks- because I am a good mom slash pushover) I see some new plant that makes my eyes go googly. And let’s not even talk about the times she texts me a picture of some flower or vine and I tell her I’ll be there asap to bring it home.

It’s been the last full week of school with all the accompanying hustle. Even though my last real post ended with how much of a withdrawn introvert I am, since then I’ve experienced a burst of vitality. In the past week I’ve gotten the kid’s physical taken care of for the next school year, helped out with soccer uniform return, gotten us pedicures, run a Board meeting, run a Shareholder meeting, negotiated with a major automaker or two, mowed the lawn, met up with my bestie for breakfast, checked out our local art fair, planted, run 10 miles (not all at the same time), and gotten us / her to work, school, and band on time. This is no small feat and my Hobonichi is smoking.

I’m sleeping fewer hours – the long Michigan days have a discernible effect on my energy. It’s not fully dark now until after 9pm and I feel almost manic with vigor. This will wane along with the daylight as we move through the summer solstice but for now I am weirdly – awake.

The other night my eyes opened at the ungodly hour of 3:30 to the sound of a single disoriented bird singing. I listened for awhile, then got up for a drink of water. In the bathroom, I leaned on the sill of the open window. The backyard was bathed in moonlight and it was creeping through the pines at an almost perceptible pace. A clutch of deer drifted in absolute silence through my garden, pausing only to nose among the plants for their evening nibble. They moved like ghosts and for a long time I stood there and watched them, almost unsure they were real. The solitary bird sang on and I thought how odd it was to be awake and see the citizens of night, whose world it is, in this night land, when we are all asleep.

*”the hours rise up putting off stars and it is dawn into the street of the sky light walks scattering poems” – e.e. cummings